Welcome to my humble abode.

Simplicity is my mode. Don't need to complicate matter in anyway.
Love always and receive love. Do to others what you want others to do to you.
Live life to the fullest, and love what you do in life.

02 March 2010

Latest Update

Here is a link to the new update of Karen. Done on 28 Feb 2010.

Thnx.


http://www.emergingearthangels.com/2010/wings2.28.2010.html

02 February 2010

Emotions, Empath Gift. and much more...

This is really interesting. My empathic gift have been suppressed for awhile, somehow. It's been under controlled very well. What have I done? What did I do to let it off now? It comes and it goes? Is it about acceptance? About knowing? Understanding? Maturity? Or becoming? Or did I say I don't want it any more?

Embrace the feelings and emotions. Is what they say about it.

"You are never afraid of anything. I envy that about you.." Piper's line to Phoebe. For Piper's life changed all of a sudden about them getting the powers of the witches. "I just wanna be normal again... Is that so much to ask for..?" I guess that was what I was asking for at one point of time. "A toast to the power of three, whether we like it or not." - Piper. "Give to get. That's the secret of life." - Phoebe.

The gift has special things up for me through the years. It's now 2010. Time has surely move on. It's ever changing when one's mind matures and develops to a higher level. To a higher ground, to a higher power. Have I mastered it yet? Honestly, I won't dare to say yes, as the Gift is ever powerful. I only feel it very strongly in the supernatural way, not on this plane.

I guess this is goodbye. Goodbye to the past, goodbye to the "old", bye to the things that we keep holding on to. I need to move on, goodbye to the hurt, the pain, the sorrow, the unforgiving part, bye to the part that won't let go. Bye to fear, fear of lots of things, to the uncertainty. Bye to whatever that had happened, the regrets, bye to the discouragement. Bye to the inferiority complex. (The list will go on, I'll continue to add if I can feel about.)

I don't know where to start with. Lots of things in my mind and heart that has been contraindicating each other. My mind don't know what my heart is doing, and my heart don't know what my mind is thinking. Therefore, I always contradict what I say and do. Somehow, regardless of whatever, I know what I'm doing... (lol, I'm contradicting again, am I not?)

Somehow, 1st February 2010, has the most uplifting energy ever so far. Something somehow, somewhere is moving in a very different direction. I can feel it, when I was walking to dinner. Something in the wind is saying something, something somewhere is saying something to me... I can't figure it out yet. I just know.

Ancient chinese saying: "The true way is like water. It benefits all, and asks no rewards."

Anyway, Blessings and Light to everyone. Take care for now.

26 January 2010

Crossing Over

This is what I've been experiencing all the time. I am glad that someone somewhere have the same thing in common with me. I must thank Karen for this. This is the excerpts from what she wrote.

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From "Crossing Over":

"THE INDIVIDUAL VS. THE WHOLE

In many of my writings, I commonly say that the whole vibrates
higher than the individual. Each individual contributes to the whole,
and thus, a whole is then created from many higher vibrating energies.
A much larger higher vibrating energy then exists. But there is more
to this as well.

Energy is usually connected to other energy, as ultimately, we are
all one at our core, as we originated from the same spark and
source. In this way, I believe it to be very true that we are all
one. Everything that each of us chooses to do, be, or even say,
affects everything around us as well.

As we begin to evolve and vibrate higher, we become more and more
aware of the energy of the whole. We become more and more aware of
how everything affects everything else. And we become more and more
aware of being respectful and considerate of what is out there in
addition to ourselves.

The ascension process creates a substantial loss of ego and of our
old dense selves, leaving behind our true and authentic selves. In
this way, we ever so slowly come to know that everything is not all
about us, as there is very little "us" left intact. As we vibrate
higher and higher, we see others more clearly, we are aware of
others and how they are feeling and who and what they are being,
and we are also aware of the organism called "society" or humanity
that surrounds us.

In addition, we perceive less and less through the filter of our
own density as well, as there is much less density now present
within us. Our dense filter of how we see things is thinning and
lightening, and thus, we can now see much more clearly. In these
ways, much of everything is no longer about us, what our needs are,
what we want for ourselves, and what makes us happy. We are much
more aware then, of the whole and aware as well, that the whole is
vitally important to how and what we now want to create.

Some indications that we are now vibrating higher, and thus
embodying a greater awareness of the whole, or rather, now wired
for living in community and interacting with a group in higher
ways, are listed below:

1. Anger and frustration when driving a vehicle, in regard to
interacting with other drivers. We may be courteous and aware of
the drivers around us, but others are not. They cut us off, speed
past us, tail gate us, and the like. They seem to only be aware of
where they need to be going, oblivious of who else is on the road.
After we become wired for group energy, these kinds of experiences
can make us wonder, make us feel as if we are somewhere where we do
not belong, and perhaps make us grit our teeth and endure until we
can remove ourselves from this environment. We are not seen.
2. You are sitting in a parking lot, and a car approaches, parks,
and remains there, all the while playing loud "bumping" music
through their sound system, and this emotes anger within you. I
cannot tell you how many times this has happened to me, and each
and every time I get out of my car, approach the "offender," and
ask him to turn it off. When my five year old grandson now hears
any of these bumping systems, he now says, "Uh, oh. Grandma would
not like this!" Deep in our hearts, we are protecting our
environment, and these things simply do not fit in. It is no longer
about the individual learning to tune things out while allowing
freedom of expression. It is now all about the whole and creating
our new reality. As we begin residing in our own sanctuaries of
community, and as we detach from the old reality in all ways, we
also come to know that that old reality is not connected to us
anymore, and thus, lose our desire or even interest in what is
occurring there.
3. You are ignored by others who simply act as if they do not see
you, are unaware of your needs, and even what appears to be, your
very existence. Yes, most certainly, we become nearly invisible as
we vibrate higher, and anything that vibrates lower, is then unable
to see us on their radar or their level, as we are not there. But
this phenomenon also relates to the fact that as we begin to
vibrate higher, we clearly see our brothers and sisters, who they
are, and what their purpose is all about. With deep respect, we
acknowledge their presence in every way, as we then have a mutual
connection to each other. In the old reality, where things vibrate
lower, many individuals do not acknowledge each other very often,
and many times, not at all!
4. You go to a gathering or group meeting, with the intention that
you are all working on something as a whole, and you are ignored,
disrespected, and not valued for what you have to offer. Again, we
are not always seen, but group energy is all about equal
contributions from all members via their gifts and purpose, and
being highly revered for them. End of story.
5. You find that you simply can no longer tolerate being alone. In
the beginning stages of ascension, part of the process involves
losing the fear of being alone. This is because we will eventually
be in group energy much of the time, and cannot go there because of
a fear of being alone. So then, we may find ourselves alone during
the ascension process, in order to lose that fear, and also to find
ourselves. The higher we vibrate, the more we begin vibrating group
energy, and in this way, we eventually feel very strange and
uncomfortable being alone as it does not fit in with higher ways of
living and being. We enter group in the higher realms from a sense
of unity, all the while knowing what is ours to contribute, and not
because we are afraid of being alone or because we can no longer
take care of ourselves.
6. You are acutely weary of doing everything yourself; you feel as
though you are holding everything up with your one little finger or
individual shoulders, and simply cannot do everything yourself for
one minute longer. Once we are wired for group energy, doing
everything through the shear effort of ourselves begins to get very
old, but mostly, can make us extremely tired and acutely burned
out. I can remember flying back to North Carolina one time, and
being oh so grateful, that someone else was actually flying the
plane instead of me!

Feelings of being weary of doing it all by ourselves, are
especially prevalent when we are in our purpose. If we are
vibrating high, or in alignment with our true and authentic selves,
then we are embodying a lot of energy. Holding so much energy all
alone, many times means that we are holding something up as well.
And all of this ties in with coming together with our brothers and
sisters who are carrying a lot of energy too, in order to create a
whole.

During times of the first phase of the ascension process, we moved
forward as a whole. We were all in this together, and we knew that
we had planned on taking as many along with us as possible. In
addition, we needed to pool our higher vibrating energies in order
to raise the vibration of the planet. So then, during phase one, we
were most assuredly a whole, but we were a whole with one specific
purpose...and that purpose was to raise the vibration of the planet.
Phase two, or creating the new reality, involves a different kind
of whole. This new whole has a lot more to do with the individual.
Before we can create a new whole, or a new reality, we must really
and truly know who we are, what our gifts and talents are, what we
are passionate about, what comes easily to us, and thus, what we
are here to contribute to the whole.

Once we know these things, and are very much in this space, as so
much of our denser and ego selves have departed through the
ascension process, and our pure and authentic selves are what
remains, then we are ready to come together with our brothers and
sisters and create a very new whole, or very new reality.
In this way, being an individual is vitally important to creating a
whole. We can no longer do it all alone, and we most assuredly need
each other to continue to survive.

The two key concepts that are required to create a new reality
then, are sustainability and purpose...and you will hear these two
concepts over and over again throughout the remainder of this
e-book.

We need to know our purpose in order to create and sustain a new
world or a new whole. And it is our purpose that connects us to
each other, as we come together to now create a very new energy...and
energy that will vibrate very high and keep us all connected to
source...the new source that we now embody within ourselves.
So in this way, we no longer get energy from out there or up there.
We receive higher vibrating energy from each other, or from our
connections to each other. We are now the new reality and the new
world...and we are creating the new energy through our very new and
higher vibrating connections.

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I will put a permanent link on the side.

Below is a picture of her banner.

Hmmm.. What a coincident...

This is a website I have been following for awhile. It was called "What's up on planet earth" to what it's known as Wings - Emerging Earth Angels.
Somehow, whatever she wrote on that week, almost all of the days when she wrote... The energy and things she relates, they are almost so accurate. No words can explain the feeling and things that's tuning us together, even when we are so far away. For example, what she (Karen) wrote for 23, was what I was going through.

Below is what Karen wrote:

New and Different Outcomes...Believing Again
January 23, 2010

We are in interesting times indeed. And even though the energies seem to continually go this way and that way, there is a distinct pattern and purpose none-the-less, as this purpose navigates through the waters of the power of our creative thoughts. Right now, we are teetering…teetering on the brink of what the new world, new reality, or rather what Earth Two will look like, and the Haiti earthquake has assisted this planet in more ways than we could ever have imagined.

From the onset of the earthquake in Haiti until it completed its core purpose (but there will still be more beautiful tendrils to come) on January 22, the energies were crying “distress!” or “SOS!,” or “911!” , or “I need help right now!” or even simply “I feel empty and drained” and “where am I anyway?” These energies were felt by all of us, no matter if we were aware of the situation in Haiti or not.

Many souls were sending out a distress signal because of the insecurity they were feeling. And this insecurity could feel downright uncomfortable, unstable, and for many, excruciatingly fearful with a powerless slant as we may not have been sure how and where to move forward or what to hold onto. Add to this the lower level interpretations of the Haiti earthquake, and it is no wonder that many souls were experiencing a new insecurity, instability, and exhaustion from all the surrounding energies.

This is an unprecedented time for us for several reasons, of which I will describe below. It is also a very precarious one, as things are indeed still a bit unstable now, even though we are making great progress in embracing the new shifts and allowing them to set the tone for our very new reality. We could still very well go into a time of a new unpleasant and dark reality if we are not careful, and if we are not mindful of what is now occurring. Even so, I personally trust that things will unfold quite nicely if we remember who we are and remain at the helm as the powerful creators that we were intended to be, as we turn the tide from the old reality experience to the new.

So then, for the past week or two, there was nothing to hold onto, because we had not yet created it. We have completed step one, which brought in a wonderful energy that filled us up, weaving in and out within us, as it served to ground us to the new Earth. After this, we may have felt empty and drained, because we were readying for step two, as we are done with step one, and the energies we most recently experienced had departed for awhile. The Haiti earthquake arrived at a pivotal time, with the sole purpose of opening the hearts of the planet, and of setting a new tone of security, as it rocked the planet to its core in an attempt to jump start a very new way of being….and it has succeeded in every way and then some.

Creating the new reality, or Earth Two, is very different than what we had experienced so far with Phase One of ascension. We no longer have the lower rungs beneath our feet that we had in Phase One of the ascension process. We no longer have others to fill the slots below us as we thought we would, because of the separation of the worlds which occurred in September of 2009 (hoping this is all making sense…there will be a synopsis at the end of this WINGS post that summarises things for easier absorption!). This is then, a very different process. We are literally starting from scratch. Thus, all the seeming emptiness of late, as we grasp the thin air and attempt to mould it into a new reality of our making.

But we must know that we are getting a tremendous amount of help simply from the new plan we created at our soul levels, and that what is very different this time, is that the plan is working now in all ways so far. The more we choose to see and embrace that this is occurring, the more we will feel a new sense of security and feel that something new and different is most certainly going on. This alone will serve to support our new growth, as these experiences will expand piece by piece, and moment by moment.

Yes, we have completed the first step of creating the new Earth… which involved grounding and creating the first floor of the new reality. Like new seeds just planted, we have oh so slowly begun to sprout our own magnificent blossoms and new wings of energy, and thus, will grow into the new world like new budding babies.

The next step, or step two, involves aligning with the energies of the new beginnings, or rather our very new endeavours or new spaces in the new world (you do not have to have a new endeavour if you do not choose to, but you will have a new space relating to who you are). So although the celestial events that occurred on January 15th gave us this new start, it is still up to us to hold that new energy blueprint up and bring it into form. Immediately after we experienced this new energy of the 15th, the energies dropped down once again, as too many souls were still tapping into Earth One, or the old world reality of control, oppression and loss of freedom.

In addition, when a new blueprint arrives, we always need to align with it in all ways. So then, we may experience fear and darkness in regard to what we will now be offering, or how we will fit into the new reality. We next went through the process of releasing anything that may have held us back from completing our next soul purpose or soul slot in the new world. This can cause depression and anxiety, and certainly some fear as our new reality and new experiences are all very new….but so much better than we have ever known! We may not be used to living in a beautiful new world, so this can take some getting used to. We experienced darkness during the grounding phase of step one, and eventually came out of it feeling great, and this next step will be no different.

The ascension process always creates a pattern of darkness and anxiety immediately after the good feelings that a new blueprint originally creates, and then we always move through it and onto the next phase. So then, there is nothing unusual here. And all during this time, and with each new shift, a tremendous amount of crown chakra energy has been arriving for us as well.

Earth Two, or our new reality began as an overlay or parallel reality to Earth One, or the earth we left behind. We had to start somewhere, and holding a fair amount of the old reality in our consciousness is only natural. We are still human beings and we need something to connect to. After we finished with step one which grounded everything, we were then left empty again, and it was very easy to tap back into the illusion of the old world, as there was nothing here yet to sustain us (remember, there will be a summary of easy to digest points at the end of this post!…smile)

The response to the Haiti earthquake and some other things that are changing within our old systems, are showing us that Earth One, or the old reality, is indeed slowly morphing into our newly inhabited Earth Two. These changes will slowly begin to adjust the old illusions, or basically change the old reality that we may still be holding in our consciousness and keeping alive.

As of today, we have created enough of the new reality to hold us until the end of February, 2010. After that, everything drastically drops. We are literally creating one inch at a time, and as always, it is up to each and every one of us, what we choose to create.

In some respects, we are in dire times right now, as we precariously teeter on the brink of what we may choose to create. We really need to be mindful of what we are holding in our consciousness, as it will serve to create our very new grid. But again, know as well, that the old reality consciousness that we are still holding is slowly and surely beginning to change.

If we continue to hold onto the illusion of the old reality, or the “same old, same old,” and focus on it, then this is what we will continue to create. Believing anything to be true and holding up that illusion, will continue to make it real. It will give it life and feed it. So along with the Haiti earthquake serving to open the heart of the planet, it also showed us that help, support, caring, unity, trust, and making a difference are now some of the nuts and bolts of the new reality if we choose to tap into this massive new shift that has just occurred for us. These new nuts and bolts will serve as the mainstay or in other words, add to our very new foundation as well.

What we need to do now, in order that we enter March in a relatively seamless way with no “drop,” is to keep our minds focused on what we desire for ourselves and for the planet, and on what we want our own individual lives and realities to look like. If enough of us continue to do this, we will create our own reality or new experience, and if we can manage to hold that vision for long enough, then we will eventually connect to others who fit in with our reality through the natural law of attraction. This is what the process of creating Earth Two is all about.

We can begin by holding our own special vision of our desired reality in our minds upon waking each morning and going to sleep each night. And of course, we can always keep it, feel it, and hold it all day long as well. We need to declare with certainty and conviction what it is that we desire. We need to know that we can create with certainly and conviction, with no trepidation. The more we do this, the greater chance we have of creating it, and in these new and higher vibrations, we are creating very easily now.

Eventually, our individual visions will connect to each other through the natural law of attraction, and a new grid will form. When a new vision is embraced and sustained within the consciousness of enough souls, then it becomes a new reality and every soul can then tap into it, see it, and navigate and live within it. Thus, it strengthens over time and will sustain itself. The new gatherings, or “soul celebrations” I will be offering this year, will serve to identify and anchor within each attendee, their new soul imprints, and then connect these imprints to other souls, thus assisting with the creation of the new grid (new e-book for navigating and experiencing these very new waters is in the making as well!). As we learn to sustain our vibrations within the new and higher vibrating energies, we will eventually create a self-sustaining higher vibrating reality and our visions and reality of unending miracles will become the norm. These are exciting times indeed!

In a strange way, the Haiti earthquake has allowed us to see and feel that all is well…that different outcomes are possible now….that this planet really and truly does care…that this planet has a heart that is now very open once again…and that unity and love have been rekindled and revived as the air that the new reality will breathe. Each and every soul who was involved with this massive planetary shift can now be held in our own hearts with great reverence as the earth angels that gave of themselves to assist with our very new reality and new beginning.


The shift of new beginning energy that arrived on January 15th created a new blueprint, but we still had to align with and adjust to that blueprint after it arrived.

The Haiti earthquake also created a massive shift that opened the heart of the planet, and gave us a new sense of unity, security, trust, and belief in new and different outcomes, also adding to our new foundation.

What we hold in our consciousness will serve to create our new reality.

The longer and more frequent we hold a vision, the more it will become true for us.

We will link our own personal visions together through the natural law of attraction, and thus, create the new grid for the new reality.

What the collective chooses to hold the longest, will become the new reality (or new air that we breathe) for everyone, no matter what each individual is believing.

Because of the recent shifts, and if we choose to believe once again, our new endeavours and sense of security will begin to blossom.

With much love and gratitude,

22 January 2010

Who, Why, When, What The...??? Now?

Time have move to a level of conscious and unconsciousness for me all the time.  Lately, I'm lost to the "not knowing and feeling the event of time and space now".


As I grow older, time seems to go faster and faster.  Will I be able to catch up with time... before I die? Or... Will I ONLY catch up with time after my death?  That's only to tell in my next state of being.


Is time so important?  Do I have to race with it?  Or do I go with it gracefully?  To follow?  Or to run with it?  I really don't know.  I guess it's a mixture of both?  As the saying goes: "Go with the flow."  <---  or  ---> ?  Up or down?  North?  South?  East?  West?  Anywhere in between?  I don't know?  I really don't know...

Those are some of the questions I've been wanting to know.  And of course there are more.  Why am I put here for?  What do I really need to know?  Where do I go from here (that is every time when I get on the crossroads)?  What am I?  Who AM I really?  Why do I have strong psychic ability (well, I don't think I have all the psychic abilities, but knowing that I am sort of a psychic anyway)?  Where does all these unnatural abilities come from?  Sometimes, I even ask whether is there a real god?  Damn... there are too many questions in me that are always left unanswered.  Why is that so?

Sigh... To begin with...  Why do I have so many questions too?  My inner kid is really bursting out all over again.  Wanting to come out so badly.  Am I inhibiting him and depriving him of something?  Indeed I am certain I am inhibited in MANY ways...  Inhibited by meself, surroundings, people, rules, regulations...  Worse that I'm backing in Singapore...  Even more rules and regulations of DO's and DON'Ts...  What more and I say?  But to really laugh it all out??  See... I'm inhibiting meself again...  I am not like my younger self which, if I laugh, I really laugh with no strings attach to it.  I have to start searching deep within again.  I am going to seek for a good environment, like the Himalayas' Temple's atmosphere to Ooommm all the way to feel and get back the vibration within.  My energy have been really depleting and it's still going down, as things are not going smooth at all.  I do not seek to the path of depression at all.  Somehow, I feel I'm protected now.  That's good, not like in the past, I feel too emotionally affected in many ways.  O dear... to come and think about it now... Is it good or is it bad not to feel it??  DAMN IT..!!

Honestly, I am feeling SO tired, mentally, physically, and almost spiritually now.  I heard from Liat, that Pamela is coming by Singapore!! Yay, I am so looking forward to seeing her soon.  Anway, my whole being is undergoing so much of craziness now.  I'm so mentally tired to deal with all this.  To make things worse, my body is "breaking" down too..  Totally not helping at all.  I've come to a point where I now say, I have "completed" all my main desires to be what I wanna be, and do what I wanna do.  I feel now that my life is useless now, that I donno where to go, what to do in my life now.  I should have died earlier... but somehow I didn't.  This "continuation" of life that's meaningless now, is not going anywhere for me at all.  Whatever I do now, wherever I go, will be meaningless.  Even that I used to wanna work with kids... it's over, nursing... it's over...  As I say... What now??


17 January 2010

Life for Rent?

Whenever I listen to this song, how very true it is, and it applies to my life now.
I have never find myself a real home yet somehow. When will I? How will I? Well, I still dream and hope that it will become tangible soon.

Here is the song from Dido - Life For Rent. She sums up my thoughts right now.

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...


So much to say, so much to do. I need to sort it out soon, as my life need to move on to the next phase. Can't keep getting stuck at all. I need to continue to follow my dreams.  "I can do all things, through God that strengthen me."

15 January 2010

Home

After all these years, moving around, travelling, experiencing many various cultures, have shown me many little things in life.  Life experience itself made me who I am, and what I am now.  Not bogged down by too many rules and regulations which are obviously man made all the time.

One most beautiful thing about life as a teacher, has taught me lots of things.  Basic survival in concrete jungle and natural jungle.

Values, mannerism, forgiveness, love, patience, understanding, openness, anger, hate, violence, cultures, rules, regulations, languages, movement, and much much more that I have learned throughout my life so far.  Guess what...?  There are so much more to learn in life.  The day I stop learning, is the day that I die in this life.  And I will continue to learn over, and over, and over again.  Until the saying goes: Enlightenment, to Heaven, and some says hell.  Well, it really all depends on how much you make yourself to be.

At this point, my mind is everywhere (as in I am going through another movement to a higher level state). Each time when we come to a crossroad, that is where we are put in situation/s to improve ourself and to attain better than what we are before.

As you can see now that I am very in touch with the Spiritual realm.  Words now I construct, mostly comes as a rhyme to many, especially when I go into another state of conciousness.  I feel very detached from this world we live in and yet, I am still here. How strange.  I seem to have no real sense of time and space.  I feel that I need to go back to my roots, in which what I was in my former life.  Somewhat to complete what I did not complete in the past.  Gosh, this is so weird... that I am writing all these now.  I think only people I met in Melbourne, like Heath and Liat. They are my closest Spiritual buddies I ever have.

Heath and Liat, if you two happen to read this note of mine, please pray and see as to what stage or things I need to do from now.  I am writing through my merging of concious and subconscious state of mind now.  Thanks my dears.  Yes, I have not yet sleep for more than 24hrs, again... I know.